Ah! Such a scary subject to talk about…
But it’s true. It’s not pretty but it has a pretty ending.
You see, I grew up in a wonderful family. I was blessed with parents who loved me, provided everything we needed (with a little tough love) and always encouraged our dreams.
For me, after I graduated high school and went away to college I was lost.
I had left home where I lived for 18 years, my best friend was battling cancer (he survived) and I had no real idea what I wanted to do with my life.
This was when I had my first real taste of freedom. No parents around, living on my own and thought I was cool playing college football.
Very quickly I was learning tough lessons from my decisions.
I was drinking a lot, and hanging out with a lot of kids that really weren’t bad people but also didn’t know where they were headed in life.
From there the next 5 years was kind of a blur. I found myself back at home, with these new experiences of freedom but living under my parents’ roof at 19.
Let’s say coming home half in the bag at 4 am wasn’t going to work.
With this built frustration and resentment. I could do anything but didn’t know what I wanted to do.
I was in and out of jobs that I didn’t like, going to college classes (sometimes) that I had no interest in, living for the weekends, and slowly headed down a path that was very scary.
I spare you many of the details.
By 22 I was doing drugs and drinking, living paycheck to paycheck, hated my job, hated my body, and really hated myself.
I was at that point where I didn’t see a point to live but was way too afraid to die.
But then something happened. I guess I hit “rock bottom” for the 20th time if you want to call it that. But this time it stuck.
I attended a personal growth event.
I was exposed to everything that I was looking for.
I all of a sudden got excited about life. About creating something, about making progress.
I really felt like I could do something in my life that was worthwhile.
I decided to pursue becoming a personal trainer. I thought if I could learn this stuff I could get in shape and then help other people do the same.
I began reading books, listening to audio tapes. I quick my job as a laborer and applied to gyms.
I started hanging around friends that worked out and didn’t go to the bars.
I hired a coach and signed up for a bodybuilding competition.
WHAT!? Who is this guy?
Seriously…If you knew me 5 years ago, you wouldn’t believe what I’ve accomplished by 27.
I met the girl of my dreams, built a company and sold it to someone my best friends so that we can build something even more special as a team.
I moved to Iowa, and will soon move to Arizona and fulfill a dream of mine.
I titled this…I am an addict. and it’s true to this day. I am no longer ashamed of it or identify with the title but more so the action.
Today I’m addicted to growth, to love, to progress, to creation, to fulfillment.
Listen, if you’re sitting there thinking…Billy that’s great for you, but it’s just not in the cards for me.
STOP RIGHT THERE.
Your best thinking got you to where you are today. It won’t get you to where you need to go. You better be open to learning, messing up, failing, falling down and ALWAYS getting back up!
These last 5 years have been so fulfilling but also so scary and painful. Only through my struggles, I have seen magic happen.
I am no better than you. I am no more capable than you. 5 years ago, if you told me where I would be today I would have laughed in your face.
Today, I know anything is possible and I’m committed to making this life a rollercoaster.
It is never too late to start over or pick a different direction.
There are so many people out there that love you and want to see you happy, but it starts with inside.
Trust me when I tell you. You have a gift. You have this life and it is up to you to make something of it.
And the best part is that…you don’t have to do it alone. You just have to take the first step…
Reach out to someone, I would love if it was me.
I’ll meet you where you are, and together we can write your next chapter.
I love you.
I will talk to you soon.